Wha Wha Whaa... <--- Trombone noise...

Well... I quit my job today. That may sound stupid to some people who I know that are desperatley looking for a job. I was making 10 an hour at my current position working in an office doing data entry. Now I'll be making 15/hr working from home doing appointment setting. I was happy with my job, my boss, my co-workers. etc. I felt like the company was gonna drag out giving me a raise forever. See I was hired by a temp. agency and I was supposed to get hired on to the compaby after 3 months. Well it's been almost 5 months and no hire and no raise. I started looking for a new job... and I found one. Sucks I had to abandon my cool boss. Even he admited though... You gotta look out for #1 sometimes. If I ever do wanna be #1 I wasn't gonna do it sitting in that office. It's off into the world again. Starting a new job. Better income and better grades! That's the goal for this year. Wish me luck!

Sacrificing Comfort and Security For Progression...

I'm at a point in my life where I am relatively comfortable with my job and money situation. I make about 10/hr at my current position, which was supposed to be "temp to hire" after 3 months. Well it's going on almost 4 months with this company and I don't see me getting hired anytime in the near future. That is unless I decide to drop out of school and dedicate my immediate future the company (I have no plans to do so). So I have been offered another postition making 15$/hr with the potential to make a considerable amount more than that within the first 3 or 4 months. This job though involved working from home, and a considerable amount of less job security. Althought, if I was to not last that long I always have my position at HanR Block in Jan.-Apr. I think I'm at a point in my life where I need to take that dive and go for the risk. I see myself so often being satisfied with mediocrity, which is something I'm changing in many aspects of my life. For instance I plan on taking most of the community college I took and passed with a "C" over again, to boost my GPA. I've moved out of my moms house, I've quit drinking. I think it's a good thing that I look back to this time last year, and I deff. think my life is on a much better "track" than it was last year. Now that I'm doing so much better, do I want to incur all the risks that are involved in quitting a job to start a new one? Well I was watching a documentary on Kanye West last night. I know that sounds kind of pathetic to idolize a musician of all things, but he took a lot of risks in his life that people thought were crazy at the time. Like dropping out of school to pursue his rap career and dropping everything and moving to LA. I guess I decided that being comfortable is good, but it takes risks to achiever your dreams... I think that in the long run this will be a good decision. I love my boss. And I feel bad that he spent all that time training me, only to have me quit. He himself told me at one time though that you have to be selfish because nobody else is gonna be selfish for you. So... check back to see the outcome!

Wow...

I just realized this moment that I haven't touched a drop of alcohol in one month exactly. It was August 21st that I stopped drinking. I haven't decided when I can start drinking again. It's so weird "quitting" something you like. It's such a weird feeling, like everytime I use to go into a store I would buy booze, just for principle. Now... It's like I look at the beer, and I want it. I know I could buy it. But I know I shouldn't and I don't. It is truly a weird thing that I think only a real addict could understand. I still have been smoking weed
every once in a while. But the money I've been saving on not buying weed and beer is pretty large. Also the time I'm spending being coherent allows me to fit in more time studying. As of now, I'm doing much better in school then i've been doing in a long while...

Tedium of Responsability...

man... my new school schedule sucks ass! Pour about a gallon of weak sauce on that shit! I start my day at 7:20am and am not leaving school until 7:45. Tue. and Thur. are now my officially most hated days of the week. In a way I think it will force me to get some homework done in these hour and a half periods I spent stuck in boredom between classes. Soon this hell will be over. It will be nice to take classes that actually have something to do with my major. What is that by the way? Well... I guess I'll worry about that s later. Until Then. AWAY!

Life... Happy Moments That Keep You Alive Long Enough To Eventually Expose You To Great Pain, Tricky Fuck!

I don't know why the title is so sad. I'm actually in a relatively good mood this afternoon. Only thing that sucks is that my gf is sick :( Goin' to the good ol' urgent care this afternoon to see what's the matter. I gave in and bought weed this weekend. I felt like a jack ass afterards. First of all I can't afford that shit, evethough I only spent 15$. I started school this week which will cut my income by 2/5'th's it's normal small amount. I am in no place to be wasting $$$. Also, weed f's me up when it comes to school. If I have pot I'll be high and I won't get shit done, like; homework, studying, etc. I have like one bowl left, which i'm probably gonna smoke when i get home.... Then I'm done! Buying weed. The drinking thing hasn't been that difficult, but weed is gonna be much harder. My whole not drinking thing will be tested this Friday, I'm going to my first "party" since I quit drinking. And chances are everyone will be drunk except for me! But I'm not too worried about it. I get to hang out with a bunch of cool ass old friends from highschool and go looking for ghosts at midnight @ the mission inn. For all of you not familiar with the Mission Inn, it is an OLD ass hotel in downtown Riverside. If your still curious than google that shit. I'm not an f'ing historian... Or are I?(Bad grammar intended)
Hmm... Nothing else that exciting happening in my life since the last time I posted. I watched an S load of the Simpsons and Family Guy on my computer because I have no cable. I get cable tonight though, hopefully, because my gf said she is gonna take me to Radio Shaq(lol) and buy all the cables and splitters and shit to give myself cable. Hurrah! So anyways next time I talk to you all will be after my IQ has officially been lowered a couple points due to my gf forcing me to watch MTV at my house. Oh Man. Peace in the EasT!

Sad Day...

It's kind of difficult to not think about the flood victims today. The question that this raises is where is the federal government. You always hear about these training exercises the federal government conducts preparing for a terrorist attack. Now a national emergency has occured and it's obvious that we aren't anywhere near as prepared as the government would have us believe. The topic of racism keeps popping it's head up in this disaster. From the two identical pictures of people taking things from a store, one white and one black. The whiter person is described as taking things they found, the black person described as a looter. I can't help but wonder if the fact that a large percentage of the population in trouble in Louissiana is black has anything to do with the governments slowness to react. I don't think the issue would be race as much as economic status. Does the government care about the health of the poor as much as that of the rich? It isn't likely that most poor people vote or pay taxes as consistenly as a "richer" person. I don't think we can ever know the difficulties involved in helping deal with a disaster like this. I hope I nor anyone I know ever has to. I hope that everything is being done that's possible to help these people.

Am I Too Old For My JC???

Man, I'm retaking a Biology 101 type class this semester. I took it during my very first semester in Fall of 02 and I received a "D". Now I realize how fucking old I am attending a fucking Community College. I seriously need to make this my last semester before transferring. Pretty soon I'm gonna be the creepy old guy wandering around campus... So I'm determined to ace this semester and get the fuck outta dodge. Go out with a bang. Pop pop goes the weesel. So anywho, I'm at school all day. I gotta say it is a little less boring that work. I think I'm gonna start finding interviews with people that I think are intersting. I read one with Gilbert Godfried and I wanna try to find some more. Wonder what the audio capabilities of this site are??? Hmm. Anywho. Aloha